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Scotty and Ashley’s Baby Shower

Monday was a total blast. Not only did I had fun at my friends’ baby shower, but I also made a few friends… and became twins with the expectant new Mum!

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20170324_125547Gifts for baby Ryker.. from Touré and I. Sadly he couldn’t make it that day, but he was with us in spirit. Also, Scotty and Ashley are having a boy. His name is gonna be Ryker (I seriously want to nickname him  Ryker Stryker, cause of that…).

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20170327_152501The food was great.

20170327_152615It was located at Veteran’s Park, bout… 5-7 mins from my house.

20170327_152740I seriously can’t wait until baby Ryker gets here.. I’m gonna be an awesome Godaunt… or Godmom.. or whatnot.

20170327_154657My new friends goofing around

..and now I present to you: A few of tons of presents for baby Ryker:

20170327_164926‘Straight outta mommy’.

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20170327_165614I would’ve had more pictures of the gifts, but my phone died in the process… boo. 😦

20170327_173720Scotty, Ashley (Holding the balloons), and their family

20170327_173746My new best friend (..and twin sister) Ashley and I. Funny thing is, her first name is my middle name! Also, another awesome thing is: When we first met, we instantly clicked! How cool is that?!

Now a few photos that Scotty took:

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17626114_1491319827559014_6452636234184773207_nWe actually do look alike.. even Scotty and my coworker Rhonda told me the exact same thing. I’m too excited!

17629634_805649479587735_5406782107089260447_nFinal picture: Cat and Ash.

I just wished Monday would’ve been slower…, but it’s okay. I’ll see them again soon (..and making sure that Touré’s there too to meet them). I’m still excited to meet little Ryker next month.

Now time to patiently await for the arrival of my Godson.. or, Godnephew.

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My First Wedding Shower

Before I begin, I would like to say something: Daylight Savings Time is finally here (Unless you’re in Arizona, of course). We ‘spring forward’ one hour, which means we lose one hour of sleep and so on. Hey, at least the good news is that it stays lighter, longer.

Anyway, Saturday was a day to remember. I went to my first wedding shower, and let me just say.. it was awesome, especially when the soon-to-be bride and groom, their friends, family, and I were cleaning up the mess after it was over. I gotta say, it was too funny.

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20170311_000950These were the gifts I brought them. They really liked it.

20170311_131805Inside the community center where they had their wedding party.

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20170311_131957We played a few games, including this one, the Don’t Say ________ game, and the ‘Mewlywed game’, which is like the Newlywed game, but without the newlyweds and stuff.

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20170311_132307Save the date!

20170311_132331When I got there, it was only a few gifts on that table. At the end, it was a bunch. Let’s just say that I can’t wait until Touré and I have our own wedding shower!

20170311_133415The soon-to-be bride and groom, AunaLisa and Russell. Fun fact: They’re actually worship members of the choir that I’m in. Also, one of the choir members made the fruit cake tower.

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20170311_133539The Don’t Say _______ game.

20170311_134126Closer look at the fruit cake tower

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20170311_180247After the party, when we all cleaned up and had a lot of good laughs doing so. Also, the soon-to-be bride and groom and their friends. Congrats to them on their soon-to-be wedding! I look forward to attending there!

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Relieving Anxiety: Taking A Walk Through the City and Lake

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Today was a much needed day outside in the city, all thanks to my Zozo. 🙂

We spent most of our time in the Loop and Lake Shore Drive. We actually went to The Field Museum… a bit too late, cause the door closed at 5, and we got there two minutes before closing. We were kinda bummed, but we decided to go there again this summer.. much earlier than noted.

I ended up feeling really better after talking to Zozo. In fact, my anxiety went away as we talked and walked for the day. It was much, much needed.

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20170218_161353We ended up going through the play garden for the very first time. It look so much fun, but we ended up walking through it while playing Pokémon Go.

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20170218_165448The Field Museum

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20170218_165916From the Museum Campus, the view of the Chicago Skyline is just gorgeous.

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20170218_174721Waiting for the CTA train to arrive.

I found the one thing that makes my anxiety go away, and that is taking a walk downtown and on the Lakefront. Today proved just that, too. I love Chicago Loop, Lake Shore Drive, and most importantly, the love of my life.

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Feeling On The Verge of Failure

What do I have to do in order to overcome this mix of depression and anxiety? What else do I have to do to truly prove to two people that I can stand up for myself? I’m sick and tired of it all. Also, to top it all off…

My anxiety is emerging again. I’m already dealing with a lot of stress, doing my hardest to get my life on track, and to make a better life for Zozo and I. I’m only human, can’t they understand that?

Somedays I just want to move away from it all, and just start all over, and I’m on the verge of doing so… all because I feel like a failure, not only to myself, but to the love of my life. It may seem like I’m not, but it feels like I am.

To my babe, I’m sorry for putting you through this for the past two years. Just at least understand that even though I’ve been doing my hardest to stand up for myself, some people (Like a certain parent) just don’t want to listen. I’m tired of speaking my mind to them. If I have to once again, prove to you that I can stand up for myself (Even if it means cursing both you and the parent out just to get my point across), then so be it. Be warned: It will be the final time I will speak about this. I’m not holding back either.

To the parent, I love you, but this time, it’s my way or the highway. If I have to move out and move on with my babe, or alone… then so be it.

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YouTube Gaming Family Meetup

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Sunday, September 18th, 2016.. Brookfield, IL.. this is the day that I will never forget this moment.

Sunday was also the day where I started my very first play at my church: The White Throne Judgment. I was singing in the choir during both days (Saturday and Sunday).. it was really fun. I’m gonna be singing again tomorrow night at 7 p.m.

After the service was over, I decided to pick up my awesome friends, cause one of the YTG (YouTube Gaming) streamers was visiting his family during the week, so we all decide to meet up at this place called Galloping Ghost Arcade.

20160918_161449So many games… and yes, there are about 450 games in all, from the 80’s and early 90’s, and of course.. pinball and Japanese games!!

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20160918_161631There’s a Primal Rage shirt that I wanted so bad…, but it’s for display only.

20160918_162337A little Japanese game that I found

20160918_162342Two of the streamers, Chris Plays Games (The one with the propeller hat) and Kodzo (Playing the third pinball game to the left. Oh, and that’s actually my babe, by the way).

20160918_162736He was so focused on this game.

20160918_163151One of my favorite games: Gradius III: From Legend to Myth. Gradius IV is another fun game to play. They also have Gradius II: The Ambitions of Gofer (Or Gofer’s Ambitions. Either translation is fine).

20160918_163748Of my my brothers was playing DragonBall Z game, since DBZ is his favorite anime.

20160918_164729Afterwards, we went to this place called Tony’s Family Restaurant. They had great food there.

20160918_165834If you’re into retro and modern games, then check out Chris Plays Games! He’s another awesome streamer on YouTube and YTG!

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20160918_171952Food… and lots of it!

20160918_182811So afterwards, we went back to the arcade to play some more games, and did a live stream as well. Oh, and guess what I found.. Tempest!!

20160918_185524The awesome YTG family and my awesome soulmate: Me, (Chris Plays Games (Propeller hat), Narrcost (Star Wars shirt), Kodzo, Yuhi (Zelda hat. She’s 1/3 of the group Good Luck Gamers (GLG)), Son Goshaku (Giving the two thumbs up), Snake, Nicole, and Craig Plays (At the end with the hat. He’s part of the PG gaming family called the Bromingos). Be sure to check all of them out on YouTube and YTG!

20160918_195541Snake, Yuhi, Kodzo, and I were playing this game called F-Zero: AX. It was fun.

20160918_201354My babe and I. We all had a blast that day. 🙂 In fact, we decided to make this an annual event.

So yea, this was the absolute best day ever.. can’t wait to meet more streamers soon!

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When Life Knocks You Down, Get Back Up

Finally I get a chance to do a huge update on here, and boy… a heck of a lot has been going on since then.

First off, I just wanna say, happy Lunar New Year (Or Chinese New Year, however you wanna say it). It’s the year of the monkey! Also, happy Mardi Gras to you all! I hope 2016 is getting to a good start for all you readers and viewers!

My 2016 isn’t going so good for me so far, but I will say that I am hanging on here. I have been trying to overcome my anxiety issues (It’s slowly becoming obsolete, but I’ve been having a bit of a fall back several times, but I am starting to become stronger as an after effect). As far as Touré and I go, we are actually doing really well, despite all of the recent setbacks that have been occurring as of lately.

This Friday is Touré’s last day of work. The reason being is cause his job is moving to a new suburb, one that is too far for him to get to at this time (Cause he’s still in school, currently). Until he graduates out of college (Which won’t be until the next two years), he’ll be out of a job. It’s been kinda hard on us (Me, actually, cause this is the first that has happened to me.. having my significant other losing his job, cause of situations that are out of his control), but we are actually getting through it. The good news is that he is doing live streaming on YouTube, and he is making some money off of that (Slowly, but surely), so that’s helping him and I out. He is almost to 500 subscribers (He actually calls it his people to entertain), so that’s helping out a lot.

As for me, I’m actually considering transferring to a university and finishing my bachelor’s degree there. Originally, I was gonna become a nurse, but the more I think about it, the more it’s becoming clear to me. Why am I taking one step forward, but a bunch of steps back? I need to get my bachelor’s degree and go on for my MBA, so I can start my career and have a better life for Touré and I (Also, he’s doing the same thing, as well). To be honest, we would like to live in either downtown or the north side of Chicago, but because his job is now going to the Northwest suburbs (..and my job is more than likely gonna be in Chicago), we’re trying to meet in the middle and figure out a solution that will make us happy (Apartment-wise). For now, we’re gonna concentrate on the present, and focus on the important stuff, like ACEN (Ah, Amine Central.. the event that we hope to go to this May, if everything goes through), and to me, finding a full time job and getting back to school.

It has been a huge roller coaster for me this past month, but I am keeping my balance in life, and trying to stay focused on becoming a better and happier me. Less stress, less anxiety, and less crying over stuff that is out of my control. This year, I am gonna fully make that change. Not just for me, but for Touré. By the way, all of these tests and such are making us stronger, not only as a couple, but as individuals. I’m really proud to call him my true soul mate (Also the best boyfriend I ever had as well, and I truly mean it).

Speaking of which, we are actually celebrating our first Valentine’s Day this weekend. Saturday, we are going to Steak and Shake for our Pre-Valentine’s Day date. Sunday, we are going to the movie theater to see Deadpool. I gotta admit, I’m actually excited about Valentine’s Day. All of the other V-Days that I had with my exes.. some were decent, most were bad, but it wasn’t one that I could say that I had the best V-Day ever. I’m hoping that this year I can say that. I will get pictures when that day comes.

I finally took some pictures of when I went to Chicago on Lunar New Year’s Eve that I can post on my photography blog. I will get em posted this week. As far as my fashion and beauty blog.. I have a bit of photos to put on as well. Those will also be posted this week as well.

Anyway, sorry bout the long wait, but like I said before, a lot has been happening in my life as of lately, and it has put me into despair (..and also risen my anxiety levels as well), but now that I am finally feeling better and starting to feel a bit more optimistic about the present day life, I’m  gonna start writing more on this blog. I have a bit of topics that I want to go over as well, but those will be for next time.

Until then, have a great day/night (It is almost midnight, Central time where I live, so I have to head to bed, cause I have work in the evening, and lots of errands to do in the morning)!

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Screw Today’s Society and Their “Rules”

I believe that I made a similar post to this last year, but I decided to talk about it again (If I haven’t already). I hope to make this a part of a vlog on my YouTube channel (I will have Touré be a part of it as well, cause the looks that people are giving us when they see us together.. oh boy, can’t freakin wait to talk bout it).

First off… what inspired me to make this post is due to that fact that Touré was live streaming one of his favorite games, Rocket League, and while he was doing so, he was telling his viewers about a little fact about him and I (The conversation started when I was telling one of my friends about how my ex gave me back my PS2 and such, and it actually went on from there) about our age (Yes, he’s 21 and I’m 26. Bet ya didn’t know that, eh?). Then what fueled the fire was the fact that he told his viewers about how we get looks from people everywhere we go when they see us together. It’s like, they 95% bash him for dating a ‘cute, adorable girl’ like me who looks younger than him, then when they find out about my age, that’s when the whole accusations stop. They’re finally cool with us dating, but still. Oh, and as far as I go, I get the ‘Why tf is she dating a guy like him, who looks like he could be from the streets’’?!’ looks from em.

All of the accusations and I guess you can say… oh, stereotypical thoughts finally subside when they find out the real truth about us:

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1. He’s 21, and I’m 26. Yea, I really don’t look like I’m 26, but hey… looking younger than your real age is a blessing and a curse.

2. We’re a gaming couple. We not only love video games, but we also listen to rock, heavy metal, jazz (Also nighttime jazz), and other types of music, such as from video games and international music.

..and…

3. We are way different than the ‘typical black people’ that most everyone sees now and days (The ones that like to do drugs, gang-bang, listen to today’s rap and hip-hop, those who like to ‘twerk’ and do the ‘whip’ and the ‘nae nae’ and such.. I could go on and on about that. Oh, and did I mention that we’re really intelligent and that one of our main life goals is to become financially stable? That’s something that today’s society doesn’t mention now and days, is the fact that there are black people who are actually intelligent, going to school and getting their education, cause they want to be successful in life. They don’t want to be part of the ‘norm’ that society sees us now and days). We’re not from the streets, nor do we want to be. I can continue on from it, but I’ll stop it right here.

The fact that people are bashing us and giving us negative looks for being different and for how we look is just disgusting beyond belief. I mean, sure I’m from the suburbs and he’s from the city, and he’s Ghanaian and I’m Black, White, Native American, and Asian, but that doesn’t give you the right to tell us that I need to date someone my age, or I need to date someone who’s within my skin color (I believe that’s like the number 2 reason why people look at us in disgust, is cause he’s a darker skin color than me, which freakin urks the crap out of me).

Here’s how the rules of today’s society works (This is just my understanding of it, but your views on it may vary):

1. People who are gay, lesbian, trans, bi, ect. doesn’t belong in this society.

2. If you’re black, you “have” to be part of the ‘norm’ in order to be considered popular, which means you have to smoke, drink, listen and dance to today’s rap and hip-hop, be part of a gang, ect. If you’re against it or if you are different, you are an outcast, and therefore, gonna be made fun of, and so on.

3. If you are light or dark-skinned, and are dating someone from a different race or who is lighter or darker than your complexion (Or if you’re white and are dating a black person, you will get frown upon and bashed.

4. If you are an older woman dating a younger man (Even if you are educated), you are considered a cougar.

5. If you’re black and listen to rock, heavy metal, jazz, international (Such as French, Chinese, Japanese, ect.), techno, ect., dress up like you’re a rocker, cosplay, or wear video games and band shirts, you will get looked at in disgust and talked about by the “normal crowd (Those who sag their pants, wear ridculous outfits that look like you’re from the hood, and listen to nothing but poisoning-induced today’s rap and hip hop)”.

Finally (I can go on and on about it, but I’m not):

6. If you are a man (Sometimes a black man who looks like he’s from the streets or a thug, who actually is just an intelligent, educated guy who’s either living in the suburbs or in a safe place from the the chaos in the state, I.E. someone living on the North side of Chicago, staying away from the South and West sides) and dating someone who looks younger than she really is and/or is cute (Who is also just as smart as you are, and perhaps a gamer girl, ect.), then you are also gonna get bashed on and stared at A LOT.

I think I made my point here today, but before I go, I really need to say this:

Dating someone who’s much younger (If you’re say, 25 and your bf/gf is 18, it’s okay, just as long as you’re not dating a minor) or older than you is okay!

If you’re black and your lover is white (Or vice versa), mixed (Or in this case, a darker or lighter shade of color than you), then that’s okay as well!

Basically put, don’t judge a person (or a couple) by their looks, skin color, or nationality, and also if he/she/they are poor, rich, or whatnot!

F**k today’s society and their “rules”. Also, f**k anyone who doesn’t like Touré and I dating due to our age and such, just cause it’s not “approved for today’s society”. They can look, but they don’t know a beautiful, handsome, mixed couple when they see it.

That’s all I gotta say. End of story.

P.S., A honorable mention go out to Kodzo’s (It’s just my baby’s YouTube name and also his middle name as well. Check out his videos and live stream, and also, subscribe to him as well, cause he does live streams and video of 1080p, 60fps for all of you gamers out there!) live stream of Rocket League: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwS4KSMT9EY (If you want to skip ahead to where he and I talk bout how people gives us looks in a negative way and such, go to 2:46:47). That’s where I got inspired to make this post. I really have to say this from the bottom of my heart: Thank you Touré Apawu for the inspiration and for everything that you have done to and for me!

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2016: New Year, New Changes

20160101_000513*Touré and I celebrating New Years together for the very first time. It was a blast!*

I’m making this short and sweet, but I just want to tell all of you viewers and readers Happy New Year to you all! 2016 is finally here, which means new changes and such! For me, it’s all bout major financial planning, budgeting, decision-making, and putting my babe and I’s goal of getting our own apartment into place. So far, I’m actually doing a good job on my goals. I’m starting to resume my job and apartment hunting search, I’m slowly, but surely starting to eat out less and buying more groceries, and Touré and I are starting to build a budget plan together. So far, 2016 is starting to become good.

I really hope that everyone had a good New Year’s Eve and Day! I had to work both those days, but I got off early, which meant that I got to spend time with the babe. Now it’s time to start putting the New Year’s Resolution plans into place.

So here’s to 2016! Let’s make this a good year everyone! *Raises a Starbucks venti hot chocolate in the air*

Cheers!

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Christmas 2015

Happy Holidays everyone!!

…Oh wait, is the holiday season over?

Aww…

 

Well… I survived 5 straight years of the crazy holiday season at my job, and not only that, a bunch of good (and unbelievable luck) has happened to me in the past 4 days. I received a bunch of presents this Christmas as well.. and to tell the truth, this Christmas is actually the best one that I ever had.

Christmas Eve at work was just stressful. Absolute last minute purchases from people and the fact that I had to work 8 hours that day.. yea, it just put a major stress on me (Not to mention that I worked 9 straight days, including Christmas Eve, mostly 38-40 hours those two weeks. Talk about highly irritating and tiring!). Well, I got out at 6:38 that night, and proceeded to go to the store (Not knowing that they closed early Christmas Eve, but I didn’t know that they closed THAT early, like at 8 p.m.), picked up Touré from the train station (He was staying through Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, and Saturday), got some dinner, and went back to the house.

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Mum and I hosted our first Christmas party, so of course my cousins, their fiancés, and a few of my cousin’s fiancé’s children (and his girlfriend), and my aunt came by. Touré and I were nervous, due to the fact that none of my family has ever met him before, but it turned out that everyone really liked him.. a lot! That made our day.

20151225_155615Both of us on Christmas Day. We had a total blast.

20151225_155155Oh, and did I mention that we got some awesome presents??

20151225_161622I got a PS4 (With Star Wars Battlefront bundle)

20151225_161311A PS4 headset, bows (Touré gave me bows), a small box full of candy (One of my supervisors gave me the candy)

20151225_161441Gift cards, a duel USB car charger, and Kirby’s Return to Dream Land game from my aunt

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20151225_161656Touré gave me the chest, and I got him the Star Wars calendar

20151225_163310He also gave me 3 Metallica CDs.., and I sure love Metallica!

20151225_200202His coworkers Lauren and Grant gave me this snake ring and this bracelet.. made from guitar strings. I also got a Starbucks mug as well from my cousin’s fiancé.

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20151225_161514In addition to the Star Wars calendar, I also brought him Legend of Zelda socks

20151225_161524The LoZ hat, and shirts (I got him Metallica and the Playstation shirt. Mum got him the Star Wars shirt and pajama pants).

20151225_163332These pajama pants.

What could make this 3-day Christmas day (Thursday, Friday, and Saturday) even better? Seeing the Star Wars movie!!

20151226_110935We saw it that Saturday before he left for home and before I left for work. I gotta admit, it was really good. I would def see it again!

Things are starting to look better for Touré and I.. now the next thing that we’re gonna do is to celebrate New Year’s Eve together.. we’re more than likely gonna go to downtown Chicago and check out the New Year’s Eve bash there. It’s gonna be one heck of a great time, if we decide to go there. Either way, we’re gonna start 2016 with a bang!

I really hope everyone had a great Christmas this year, and have a happy New Year to you all!

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Kodzo and Takeda

Friday afternoons/evenings.. mostly the only day during the week (Unless I have most of the morning/afternoon or day off on the weekend) where I can spend time with the love of my life, Touré, either at my house or his house. I really don’t mind the drive to the north side of Chicago. In fact, despite the traffic (Due to most road construction and typical rush hour traffic, depending on what time you plan to go to or leave Chicago, especially downtown. It’s best to go during the wee hours of the morning, like at 4, 5, maybe even 6 in the morning, or late at night, like at 11 or close to midnight), it’s actually soothing to me, seeing how beautiful the skyline is at night (If the sky is clear, that is), and add the nighttime jazz music… yea, it’s very soothing (If you are patient and not let traffic get to you—like me—that is).

Anyway, last Friday afternoon (Today is Sunday, December 6, and I do count Sundays as the start of a new week), Touré and I decided to hang out as soon as we got off from work (I got off at 4 and he gets off at 5, but because my job and his job is about 40 minutes-almost an hour between each other, depending on traffic, since he works on the west side, and I work down south (I.E. 394, down to Will county almost), it became a waiting game for him, since I had to pick him up from his job. I got there 16 minutes after he got out, due to being stuck in rush hour traffic). We decided to head to his house and to grab something to eat, since we didn’t eat since breakfast.

Once we got to his house (He was tired, and I was severely stressing out due to unexpected bad news that I realized and such. I talked to his Mum about what was going on with me, and she basically gave me some advice and hugged me, which calmed me down), we ate, and went to some stores with his Mum. She brought me a little bracelet (Sparkly, colorful flowers), and I brought some more flare jeans. Touré brought a Hulkbuster figure from Disney Infinity, a hard drive storage for his computer, and a game (Legend of Zelda: Tri-Force Heroes). What did I take home with me? A bracelet, some jeans, and a little teddy bear that his Mum brought for him before he was born, that he wanted to give to me out of complete surprise:

20151205_234741Everyone, I’m sure you’ve all met Kodzo (The red dog that I got from my soulmate and his Mum for my birthday), but… meet this little teddy bear, Takeda. I named him Takeda, cause he’s actually one of my favorite Mortal Kombat characters (Next to.. oh say, Liu Kang, Kung Lao, Baraka, Princess Kitana, Raiden, ect…). This is the first teddy bear that my soulmate has, before he was born. He decided to give it to me last Friday. I thought it was very, very sweet of him to do that, and with that said, it just not only made me smile extra hard, but it also made me cry on the inside, cause he’s the very first guy that would give him something that is so valuable to him all throughout his life. That made me extremely happy (and it (Along with him) made my stress go away completely).

Mum thought that it was so sweet of him to do that.. she couldn’t stop talking about it for hours at a time. Yea, on the inside, I couldn’t stop blushing and thanking God for having Touré being in my life.. and as my boyfriend). I didn’t wanna leave home, but I had to that night, cause I had to work the next day (Yesterday).

It’s time for me to get some sleep.. Christmas Eve and Day 2015 is gonna be one of the best Christmases in years.. if not, ever! I want it to come so bad.., but I must be patient. Oh well.. off to bed.

Zzz…